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10/25/2009 - Been trying to find my first "blog" note but can't. Not computer savvy so maybe it's lost forever. Anyway, I guess I'll start today. Let me start by saying that this is probably going to be boring for most people. I don't get out much, so my dog, cat & TV & computer are my confidants. I talk to them constantly. I really only do this to get out my thoughts so I don't go completely nuts. I am 48 and have a fairly rare bone disease called "Avascular Necrosis" I have had both hips replaced. The first one in 1996 & the 2nd in 1998. I now need my left knee & right shoulder done but my drs consider me "too young" to do surgery at this time. They want to wait until I'm 55 or so. Well, I guess the good news is, they still think I'm "young" LOL! I live in KY at this time but am considering moving to my hometown of Lake George, NY by December. I am a TV nut because I can't do much else. I have a dog (toy chihuahua, mickey & & cat, smokey - who I swear used to be human) I talk to them constantly. They are my constant companions since I don't get out & probably know more about me than any human being I know. I realize how pathetic that sounds, but it works. What can I say. I am in process of writing a book about "ghosts" Whether you believe or not is not relevant. I lived in a house that was haunted at one time so I guess it matters to only me. I find it facsinating & it also gives me hope that there is something out there after you take your last breath. If that is the truth, there are plenty of people that I would love to "haunt" after I'm gone. Not because I want to scare them, but to prove that there is "life" after death. Anyway, I have been thru alot in my life & sometimes it's easier to write about it than to talk to people. So this is a kind of therapy for me. I really am compelled to move back to NY but there is one obstacle in my way. In 2006 I was set up as a "drug dealer" & arrested. I spent 8 mo in jail & have 5 yrs probation. It's a long story & maybe one day I'll write about it. In any event, unless my court fees are paid off, I may not be able to move for at least 6 mos. (paperwork & all) I don't have to see a probation officer in person anymore, haven't had to for many mos., I was set up & am NOT a threat to society nor am I a drug dealer. I thought I was doing a friend a favor. In any event, I must pay off this fine if I want to move out of state. According to note I rec'd today from court, I still owe $250 fines & $300 probation fees. I live on disability so I am trying to find some way to pay this off so I can go be w/my grandmother (90) who needs someone to live w/her. Since I am the only one in family who has no life (so to speak) they have asked if I would live w/her. I don't have anything to lose so I said "ok" Now I have to take care of this. I don't own anything of value, so not sure how I can do it. I live on $1100/ mo so between rent & utilities, groceries, etc., I'm broke. If anyone happens to read this, do u have any ideas??? I guess I'll figure something out. In any event, I guess that's all for tonite. Maybe I"ll start writing chapters of my book on here. Maybe someone will pay for a future publication. Take care all & God Bless!