10/27/2009 - Well, here's another day. It's raining hard outside, which sounds nice & would be romantic if I had someone to share it with. Anyway, I have decided NOT to move to NY. I met a woman on Twitter who I have been talking to for several weeks. I hinted that I had a hard decision to make & was having a hard time with it. Her sis happens to be a psychic & she asked if I minded that she call me. Of course i didn't. Anyway, she phoned last night & told me my grandfather (who has been dead over 30 ys.) said I should not go. My grandmother is 90 yrs old. She has been told she needs to have someone live w/her full time or go into an assisted living home. I love her so much & so I wanted to do what I thought was the right thing to do & move to NY from KY & live w/her. I've always had doubts tho that that was the right thing to do. There is plenty of family there to help & having to find new drs etc was very daunting. I was glad when Jean asked if it was ok to have her sis Gayle contact me. She advised that my grandfather said I should not go. He loves her & is looking out for her & she has many others looking out for her also. As bad as it sounds, Gayle advised that she was going downhill fast & would need more med help then I could give. Even tho financially it would help me, in the long run, it would not be a good deal for me. So, I have decided not to move. It really is a load off my mind. I love NY but my parents need me here too & I have to take care of myself also (as Gayle said) I have been SO stressed out, not being able to sleep w/out sleeping pills...I really need to learn some meditation & learn to relax & not worry about the needs of others so much. Gayle also advised that the book I'm working on (for 2yrs+!) would be successful. I just need to stop procrastinating - which I do. So I guess I'll have to step it up. I have enough research material I think. I just need to mix it all together. Anyway, I guess that's it for 2nite. Goodnite to anyone who reads this. God Bless~